Saturday, February 10, 2007
u r being missed.. badly @ 7:30 AM
Sometimes, you will only learn how to treasure things that you have lost, and long forgotten. I am missing that feeling of pain, sweat, exhileration, rythm, expression, passion and love badly. i want my pink shoe back, i want my leotard, i want my towels, i want my baggy clothes, i want, no i should say, i need to find it back. NOW!Stupid exams.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
i am lost. . once again. . @ 11:39 PM
had a wonderful time doing my photojourn stuff. Walking along the streets of little india, and many little interesting streets along chinatown, raffles, clark quay etc. It was really an eye opener. But what touched me was the little children from an obscure church- they actually danced for me! I can see their innocence, zest and hope for life, something which i long ago had. I think the perspective and purpose in life just changes as you move on to the different stages in life. Well, no major regrets!Singapore is really an interesting place. Maybe if you would like to try looking around you when you are alone, you really discover about people. What Wayne said is true, photography is really therapeutic.
I'm afraid. i don't know how to face the one thing that i'm proud of. i am afraid that i will lose it. Lose that special thing that make me who i am. What am i going to do when i graduate, when i finally can focus on it, how am i going to face it? For not touching it for a month maybe, i feel lost. i think i cannot find the right syllabus, the right description to describe it, all i can say is that i feel emtpy, lost and afraid. the stress i am putting on myself, the thought of losing it.. i wonder if its the fact that my body lost contact with it, or its my mind, worst, my heart. Where did the yu xin i know disappear to?
Well, all i can do now is to finish that last lap.
Anyway, happy birthday lyn in advance!
Sunday, January 21, 2007
TIRED @ 10:28 AM
Its really work hard play hard. Finished with a concert, and now, back to work! still have tons to do and now really quite late already, but have to take a breather, so here i am!i miss dance. really. whenever i see the mirror, i will move. it has become a habit. is this really my passion? or am i just very interested? gawd. please let me graduate so that i can do the things that i want and need.
and i realise that any guy who has a nice smile will really melt my heart.
Currently listening to wai tao - powerstation. Freaking old song.
Friday, January 19, 2007
@ 8:53 AM
being headstrong is no good. Being straightforward is no good. so means, im no good.Seriously, why bother? But i can't. I can't bring myself to ignore. I am a fighter. A fighter without logic. Pure courage is stupidity. i am stupid. But no matter how, i still insist that feelings have to be expressed. Else i will feel constipated and unnatural.
i seriously dun want to hurt this friendship, but i guess i just did. Its my first time handling this type of issue lah!
Anyway, this is my form of treatment- a way to find peace.
School work sucks. But hell, i am going to graduate. WHOOHOO..
And i have received a news, i will be going Taiwan! expenses fully paid! I have to perform 2 dance items for ho yeow sun i think. haha. Cool. hope can meet jay chou there.. hohoho..
So many exciting things coming my way! Please just let me graduate soon soon soon!
Thursday, January 04, 2007
here again @ 11:05 AM
I know i have been MIA for a while. So many things have happened lately. More of good than bad though. i had many xmas parties and of course, a whacking helluva fun NYE party at my place. i really want to thank all those who have turned up. At first i thought i will act according to the plan, jumping into the pool after the first sec of 2007, but i hum ji. i actually went to hide while counting down. Of course, in the end i was being thrown into the pool. In the end of the day, my house was flooded with soak-wet ppl. It was really fun. i love the ppl around me. i think i am going to like 2007.I love sickoz darlings too. They say friends that you make in secondary school are real friends, i raise two hands to agree with that. When i am with them, i will not feel lonely. Its like we have been through our growing up stage together, it is so heartwarming to see each of us entering to our different stages in life. They are my invisible pillar.
i realise that i am a very wierd girl. i keep holding on to something that i dont even know if it exist. My imagination is running out. The past seems to be a blur, and it will just deteriorate. But, i just couldnt move on. Becuase its me. I will nv give up on things that i believe in. But, what is it that i believe in?
that someone from this planet says hi, but it may not even sound like that from that other planet.
Friday, December 22, 2006
Retail Therapy @ Tiong Bahru Market @ 1:02 AM
To many, Tiong Bahru Market is a place where you can find good food. But i just realised, i found good clothes too. Haha, but of course its close to the public.
Its second bangkok and bugis! Within 4 hours, i bought 8 dresses, 3 jackets, 2 shoes and a bag. i think my new year clothes are settled. HAHA. i'm happy.
My all time favourite model.
Sickoz Gathering @ 12:55 AM
It was a great pleasure to have them in my house. I miss them so much! we did our catching up and ate dau huay. Of course i help prepared a lot of food too! haha. . and omg, how much have they grown from an average looking duckling to a beautiful swan! haha.. of course our main topic of the night was the all time favourite, "love life". haha.. but when it was my turn, i only knew how to clean the floor with my butt. (inside joke)anyway, we have more to yak about. . so we are meeting on the 28th again! haha . . cant wait to see them. LOL.
Monday, December 18, 2006
X mas party @ Loosh's place @ 10:16 AM
That was my first party with bobby's peeps. To sum up the evening, i had freaking lotsa fun. Lots of alcohol too. But i think my tolerance for it is getting better. As i always tell beatrix (she's only 16), know your limit!I think pictures speak louder than words.
And no joke! We have 4 other cameras fully loaded with our crazy pics. Damn are we mad or what?!X mas is fun. It will only get better.
Next up will be my Sickoz Gathering. Haha. Be mindful that it is a gathering, not a party. So i bet there will be lots of yakking and heart to heart talks. Of course there is still the food, wine and all, but not so wild! i think. Photos coming up after the party!
